My gf broke up with me about a month ago, saying that she can’t do the relationship because of her entering university. She wouldn’t make a promise though, but said that she would like the chance to get back together. She just couldn’t do the relationship because she wasn’t mature enough to handle relationship and school at the same time.
I took it wrong way, bothered her with texts and fb messages. That scared her because there seemed to be new side of me that I managed to hide. I called her and everything. She said that part of her will always love me but she doesn’t think that it will happen. But she was under stress and wasn’t thinking clearly I could tell.
I was gettng tired of sending her messages, how it wasn’t really fair for her to treat my pain as new side of me. I also sent a message to her parents explaining and how I wanted to say sorry if I were to see them again. Then, I asked her if she wants me out of her life completely, she said no. Unless I want to. I sent her texts saying that that’s all I need. I can make her fall in love with me again.
Next day, she sent me texts. She is under the advice of blocking me completely. Her parents are mad and showed her the message that I sent them.
But she says that she will happily be friends, not sure if her parents are ok with it but it’s her choice, and that it’s honestly ok. She is passed it. She won’t block me neither. She said that I made things worse than when I sent her messages. She’s not the one who is upset anymore. She told me that she doesn’t recommend messaging her family in the future (She doesn’t like her stepmom and real dad much, whom she was living with)
I know that I ****** up. I know what I have done wrong. But I had to destroy my lingering hope and obsessing love by letting myself go completely honest and wild. Now I am free, ready to move on. I appreciated the moments that we had and how she taught me how to live. I told this to her.
I won’t contact her for like ever. Maybe saying Merry Christmas or happy new year something like that but I don’t plan to get her back any time soon. I am thinking more of long term waiting. I really won’t mind if she goes out with other guy. But I don’t think she will in anytime soon.
Will it be ever possible to get my ex back in the future?
Why does she still want to be friends though? After all the things that I did to freak her out and stuff?
Is she being indifferent? Did she completely forget about all the good times, memories and love we had because of all these?
Yes. I do want her back. She’s the one for me. I knew that only way to let her go was to do all these things and I told her that. I destroyed what I had in order to move on, was aware of the possibility of losing her forever. I learned a lot. I am moving on btw in a healthy way.


